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Altermentality

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I've been active on this account for over ELEVEN YEARS, and on dA under a different name for even longer than that. So I'm not going anywhere. That said, deviantArt has long since stopped being a place where I'm very active socially, because I just can't keep up with everywhere all the time. Not only that, but I try to only upload my very best stuff here, and there's a lot of simpler drawings, experiments, sillier sketches, pixel art animations, and other things that just don't suit dA's format very well, which you'll never see if you only follow me here. Seriously, if you think I don't draw very often, it's just because you're missing a lot!


Twitter is where I'm most active these days (tbh I hate the site, but it's where the people are), and where I post EVERYTHING I work on: https://twitter.com/altermentality


I also stream art every weekday for at least a few hours here: https://www.twitch.tv/altermentality So if you've ever wanted to see my messy process, and just hang out and talk with a curated list of quality video game music playing in the background, feel free to drop in!


There's also instagram, where I try to upload something every day, but I can only do it from my phone and it's kind of annoying so I often forget, hah. https://instagram.com/altermentality


So yeah, if you like what I do and want to drop me a follow at any of these places, I'd appreciate it! <3


Thanks, -Courtney

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You might be kind of surprised I haven't said anything about this here yet! I've been super busy lately, and my family was visiting during E3. But I've been really hyped over on twitter, and the announcement has even inspired my oldest online friend group (that I met on a Banjo-Tooie forum!) to get back together more actively than we've been in like a decade.


The scope of my fandom life, and the hope and excitement that comes from some of my favorite things being way more popular again, is such a change from just a year ago. It's hard to believe that back then, in trying to protect myself from heartbreak, I kept my hopes low and my expectations cynical and believed we'd never see K. Rool again. Now not only is he here, but in the same game with Banjo and Kazooie for the first time ever! This is like a little glimpse of the Rare crossover I always dreamed of as a kid, but unfortunately was never given the opportunity to come to pass after they were bought out. It's the first time Jinjos and Kremlings, my two favorite species in the gaming universe, have ever been in the same game! The reveal trailer being a sequel to the K. Rool one which changed my life, and leaning into the fact that the Rare family is back home, is the delicious cherry on top of this whole amazing sundae.


I could go on with my thoughts and feelings here for ages, but I feel that the best kind of tribute I can do these days is a living one. Much like I had a Roolathon last year where I played (almost) every game with K. Rool in it, with a focus on finally getting to those that were new to me (King of Swing, Jungle Climber, and a few others), I plan to have a BK marathon in a couple months on my stream: https://www.twitch.tv/altermentality I'll be playing every single game with "Banjo" in the title (well, unless there's a game themed around actually playing the banjo that I don't know about). More on that soon!


In the meantime, I play a lot of fun stuff on my stream EVERY SINGLE DAY (except Saturday) and just grabbed the speedrun world record in this silly Scooby-Doo game for the SNES. If you like what you've seen of me here on dA, I'd appreciate if you came and checked out my stream! We have a lot of fun and I'm really adamant about keeping the environment friendly. The more I grow as a streamer, the less I have to focus on commissions and therefore the more personal art (including the comic) I have time to create. Increasing viewership is my biggest goal right now, so there's no pressure to support monetarily or even chat.


See you around! <3

-Alter

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Scraps

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So, uh, hey, since when is dA forcing your "scraps" folder to be visible? I logged on today and it was there with the rest of my gallery folders, giving me quite the scare. Because... I legit didn't even know I had stuff in there, and it was all like 10 years old and really terrible so I just deleted it all in a mad panic because I don't know how to hide it. No one should ever see that stuff again.

It's not visible anymore since it's empty, but... it might actually be useful if filled with some decent newer things. Does anyone know if it actually notifies people now when you update "scraps", because it might not be bad to actually use it for sketchier/uncolored stuff that I wouldn't normally consider worthy of putting in my gallery at all.

I don't use dA enough anymore.... it's a website that hasn't really changed all that much throughout the years, but it is now, so I'm trying to keep up!

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Decade

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As of today, I've had this account for ten years. This is the first place I used the name Altermentality, which I've since carried over to everywhere else I go. It took me a while to feel like this username was "my name", but while I still prefer people call me Courtney, I've come to feel that Alter fits me just as well.

I'm doing a lot of reflection today: how much I've changed over the past ten years, and how much I still want to change. It may be slow, but there are definitely some directions I purposefully want to point myself in, and some things I want to move away from. Today provided me a good symbolic excuse to make some serious commitments within my brain. I think I'll just copy over what I wrote on Twitter...

"Today's an important day. I've been Altermentality for ten whole years. I want to write more about this name later... what it's supposed to mean and what it has already meant. Currently I'm doing a lot of reflection on the last ten years of my life.

Reading old journals from back then, I see an extremely different person. College changed me, work changed me, streaming changed me, being in a long term relationship, meeting different kinds of people, speedrunning, directing/acting in plays... all kinds of stuff made me grow.

I was a late bloomer to maturity. I'm embarrassed of the person I was in at least the first few years of having this name, for many reasons. But I'm also thinking of how far I have yet to go. There's so much I'm unsatisfied with about myself right now, too. I usually suppress my flaws because thinking about them hurts, and then when I bring them out I tend to catastrophize: 'I'm a terrible person, I should just die, I'm an embarrassing failure.' Today I'm committing to be more realistic. To face my flaws with strength, to swallow my pride, to own up to the ways I've let people down and to realize that's not ok. You may not see it but I'm letting people down, even now. Right now! I'm irresponsible sometimes, I run away from what's hard because there's always something else to work on.

After a terrible experience at my last job, I've put my mental and physical health first these past couple years. Because of that, I keep shying away from the scary challenges I used to give myself. The things that made me grow. I still love challenging myself, but it's in safe things like speedrunning. I haven't been putting myself out there for the intimidating stuff, like trying to find a theatre group here and applying for jobs that I'm afraid might be hard on me. I have to toughen up again. I either treat myself with kid gloves or mentally belittle and hurt myself until I'm paralyzed. I need to start taking a harder look at myself and how I can improve WHEN I'M NOT ALREADY DEPRESSED. I believe I am strong and can do this with constructive self-criticism.

The person from ten years ago was a selfish, navel-gazy goof but she wanted to get better and help the world in some way. She also understood that life was scary, which is something I've tried to run away from recently. If I still want now what I want then, I have to be brave."

I'm more grateful to dA than any other site I can think of... I've been here for about fifteen years in total (including my first account). When I first came here, very few people cared about my art in my "real life" and this was the best place I had for getting it out there. Even if I started out with stuff that's absolutely abysmal to my eyes now, people gave me encouragement and feedback and recognition, no one told me to stop, and that's led me to all the stuff I can be truly proud of today. I might well have stopped drawing if I didn't have this place. I'm happy that my current alias was born here, and I hope to be around more often again these days.

Thanks for being here!
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Smash is finally here, and with it, the return of a character I love dearly and spent many years thinking I'd never see again.

In honor of the occasion, I wrote an essay a few days ago about my favorite game series, my favorite game character, and everything they mean to me. It's a story that stretches an entire lifetime of happiness, inspiration, disappointment, yearning, and finally joy and satisfaction. If you have some time, and if you like DKC and King K. Rool, you might want to check it out!

altermentality.wordpress.com/2…

It's really personal and I've had a few people tell me it made them cry, which I wasn't expecting. But I'm very happy with it, so I hope you enjoy if you decide to give it a look.

Thanks <3
-C
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